Saturday, October 31, 2009

ADAPTING TO NEW ENVIRONMENT

It has been a long time since man has started searching for reasons! Yet he is still in a fix on everything he does! He always doubts if that is correct or wrong. Some don’t worry and they aren’t worried about society! Ah, society!!!
Society… what is it after all? A formation, formed by people! And people worry about ‘themselves’! Crazy! Certain times when my dad asks certain questions, it makes me think a lot! Like, when one of his brothers was opting to marry a girl he loves, his question was, “what is bigger? 30 years of your blood relation or 5 and half years of this relationship?” Reply was “this is big! Its fiiivee and haaaalf years!!!”… Never is a life without anyone to support, happy! U imagine a life where you live alone with your wife, her family don’t respect you to a piece of ___ and yours don’t even to the dog in the streets (Great India!!!). I’ll never forget my hearty one hour talk with one of my friends in this situation! A marriage with a classmate! Now, onto his story…

Once upon a time in GCT studied two people who loved each other more than themselves! Oh, I’ve different meanings for love! But, they were of the opposite gender- a sincere, dedicated love that would end up in marriage. It’s not necessary for us to mention this in India! Their religion was the same, but the castes did differ. I read in Rum’s blog that humanity can develop on marriage to a different religion’s person! He has a brother who has already married a girl of a different caste. So, his mother is so much worried about this one’s marriage! “You can’t explain logic into your mom if problem is yours!” His mother wants him marry a girl who she would choose! Her concern is all about the society. His brother’s marriage wasn’t that populous and extraordinary!!! Why is that we think marriage should be embarrassing and difficult? For the whole day we sit in front of fire, posing for photographs, having our face extra-ordinarily happy, in-spite of all difficulty! That is the day- yet, every man is looking forward too! Of course woman also!
Coming to the girl’s side, I don’t know much, yet, her mom is single after losing her husband when this girl was in std.II. All the way she has toiled hard to save this girl from male chauvinism! I could see her mom has played her part well, not only me, but every one in that class ‘must’ think so! Her mother has won that game of bringing her up. That girl is now a woman, with a lot of self-confidence, but with less sense!!! In love marriages many say that it’s one person’s mistake… I don’t know who went wrong here... May be ‘the big guy’ has personal plans for them!
In general, my question is, what’s wrong in all this if they r going to live forever, if they are going to give you good grand-children, if they are going to give you a birthday gift on your 60th b’day, if they are going to make this world look back for good reasons, if they are going to lead a peaceful life????? Note there is an “if they are going to” in all that! Now if all that didn’t happen then… this also has an ‘if’!
My dad used to say “cheriyon valudhaavillannum; poyon thirichu varillannum ennum vijarikkarudhu” It means “u can’t expect that a small person will not become big; also you can’t think that a departed person would not return back”. Moral of the story- is you can’t expect anything to happen!!! Anything can happen and some power makes it happen…
Why is Indian society so crap? Should we always be conservatives? Should we adjust to the society rules? Should we for every thing we do, think what the society will think about it? Should we this… Should we that… OR, IS IT THAT WE SHOULD ADAPT TO OUR NEW ENVIRONMENT? Society… sack it and give it a push. Let it fall in from the cliff into the valley…

Monday, October 19, 2009

Sometimes in life....

Its diwali… oh! It’s over… It has been a festival that has brought enough unsettlement in mind! Now I would love to tell you certain characters that brought out a change in life… By now a few have read my diary and those will surely know these characters-The lovable idiot & The Ratchasi… Yap! They both have been a very integral part of the past 4 months… There was tears (enough of it); worries; cries- but a small happiness in it. Happiness has always been there. But the poor chubby boy who went to school with a broad smile on his face; making people on the road forget their regular worries- with a mind that expected nothing & with an unforgettable face – knew it very late that “loss is hereditary; everything is lost at least once in life- Regaining the lost things is what that matters”. You need not be born rich to make this world look at you. It has been a bad month while considering the happiness of that chubby boy… It is tough living with ‘everyone’ misunderstanding you!!! Now, after he has had enough of it he is looking for peace and it has been late to realize that it is all within- the self…


It is not that he didn’t know it before, but knowing things is not like realizing it. Some people take immense- when I say immense I mean it- pleasure in disturbing -rather making ones mind unsettled! - others. Not every day does a man get a chance to travel in the slowest express in the state without talking a word to a couple of his accompanying passengers! It is not regular that your friend, talks well just to hurt you big time later on! It isn’t regular that one your most trusted one asks you about your errors in the past two months that you even has forgot!!!! These aren’t regular but when this happens it takes a lot of self-confidence and reality-realization to accept this as ‘mahaans’ do! Now realization does not occur always. I had to take around 20 days of worries and a day’s happiness, then again was very much worried to take in that defeat in life. But when thinking turns this way- “How is this event of a boy digging rite behind me going to affect my career big time?” – It’s really frustrating that “was it for this we were so much worried?” Hope you get me!


Was ‘the lovable idiot’ so dumb? Was he a masochist? Are people so? Can people be so bad? Don’t they have a mind as normal as humans? Don’t they understand the concept “Rehan loves you more than you love Rehan”? I can’t get this kind of people who on purpose do such things that insult- rather makes people fools- at that moment of the happening! Have you met such people???

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Wrath on paper presentation

It has been few days since i did a paper presentation. As i said in my earlier blogs, I also did in the same way... Got my friend's paper and presented it the worst way it could be. The most funny thing is, a couple of my friends did the same paper in another college.

The history of that paper is quite notable... It got a first in one of the college it was presented and also a second in another reputed institution. Now let me tell you the story... I entered a search in google "Brain Gate System". I did this to clarify some doubts. The thing I saw was amazing. As my friends told us about copying their paper, I thought it was entirely their work; but...

My paper was due the next day and I saw that happen that night. The paper entirely was a cut, copy, paste(editing) work of the first few web results. Amazing..... Now when I asked my friends the question changed, "Would you have got the idea of Brain Gate if we didn't tell?". Oh! that was great... At least now I'm happy that my friends know a lot of questions... huh!!!

The queries that were asked to Satheesh and Mathan were amazing... The judge even said that this paper was very old. This was in the other college with our, oh! sorry, their paper. It so happened that I had two of other debutants. Their paper was going on while the judges were laughing. The judges were so happy. It was a paper on how to detect if a driver is sleeping (what Sankar and Sriram presented the previous week). There was nothing for a joke in it... We were even afraid that someone out of the crowd would stand up and shout,"Goyalae, idhu enga paper da!"

I am actually angry on this... I don't want to say circumstances... But, it happens to many that they are forced to do things they don't like or deserve. It was like I was completing a semester without a credit. So, had to do all this... My question is, "If 10 do the same paper in class why not the next two?". Try answering this...